I'm Going to Make My Own Damn Underwear

Yeah, seriously. I can't keep spending money on poorly made and badly proportioned undies, no matter how much I love them.

These are my current favorites.  I get them from Torrid.  You know, the big girl store.  And while I'm extremely happy to have to purchase their smallest size, I'm irritated that they are $15 a fricking pair and last about as long a disposable gown from the hospital.

Don't let the pic fool, there's floss between them thighs.

I have at least 6 pairs of them...and every single pair comes apart at the seam.  EVERY DAMN ONE.  Hello, ever thought about only cutting whole pair in one piece and just sewing up the sides??  Oh and they also have a crotch that's about .5 inch wide.  Um hello, this is from the BIG GIRL store.  Even if I were super skinny, that space from thigh to thigh is NOT going to lose width.  If I wanted to floss my nethers, well, I'd just not.  So, I'm gonna start making my own.


Today I ate: SUSHI!!!!
Today I (will buy): a ticket to see Now You See Me 2

It's All About The Water

My weight has been up and down since I was in middle school.  I had never been a fan of exercise and eating was always good.  I do tend to take after my grandmother on my dad's side, shape-wise.  I'm kind of a block.  It's probably why I love corsets so much, they give me such a nice shape. But there was a time that I was very sad and didn't want to eat...I barely had an ice cream cone every day and I worked in a grocery store.  Regularly I was carrying around 50 and 100 lb bags of flour or rice; I was stocking shelves, always on my feet.  I was getting pretty slim.  Then, when I felt better, I wanted to stay that way.  So, I would throw up.  But that shit hurt!  Until I made sure I drank lots of water. LOTS of water...that made it so much easier..but I really didn't look very healthy.

This is me right after my nephew was born. Right before I got married.  I was 135lb. I was tiny. But then I stopped with the puking.  Harvey Fierstein would be so sad for me...





What I've found out lately..is that water still helps, but because I'm drinking it more often, not as a lubricant.  I've tried many things in my life and I'm still floundering...

Today I ate a falafel and baba ganoush sandwich, french fries, Chipotle Sorfritas burrito and a Barq's root beer.

Today I bought an office chair, silverware, pizza cutter, tee shirt, ankle support.