But I Don't Like It

I believe this idea.  I try to convince others of it.  Everyday I tell myself something similar.
But as humans we always question why it has to be like that. Especially when many people seem to not be feeling that way, EVER.  I think they are just really good at hiding it or accepting it. 

I think I've finally reached a turning point. My ex is in Wichita with someone else. They are probably going to confirm that they are definitely together. I'm not distraught. I'm not devastated like before. I'm sad, but I think this is progress. But now what?

I'm trying to remember the old me.  The one before I was married and divorced and then with Anthony.  Back when I was okay with who I was and the rest of you all be damned! I hope I can find that me again, and be better for it.


Today I ate: Indian buffet, taco roll-ups, strawberry cheesecake ice cream
Today I bought: 2 tops and a pair of pants

You Know That Whole "FIVE" Thing?

So there is this thing where couples have their 'five'. You know, five celebrities that they'd get to fuck with total immunity if the opportunity should ever arise.  Well, I was never down for that cause, rigggggghhhhtt.  But I do have a rotating list of guy crushes that it is just known if something is on with them, I gotta watch. In no particular order:

Found on Google...

Zach Galifianakis - Yes, ever since I saw him with a piano doing stand-up. I love him.

Found on Google...Huffpo maybe..

Louis CK - Freckly and all ginger..mmmmmmmmm.

Found on Google...Rolling Stone perhaps...

Richard Ayoade - EYE-Oh-Wah-dee is how you say it and it just rolls off the tongue....oh yeah...

Found on Google....

Henry 'Hank' Rollins - smart, pretty, tattooed...need I say more?

Found on Google...

Nick Offerman - I had no idea. Just none. I don't care that he is a big meat eating man.